The ants keep marching one by one horrah horrah

My dad called a few hours ago saying he talked to my boss. He is my boss's customer. Anyway, I guess I am going to be laid off tomorrow or given the option to work 46 hours a week or work for the hellish Teresa. I feel weird about all of this. Obviously I am not going to keep working there. I also feel like they kind of set this up. What's weirder yet is that I have to go in tomorrow knowing this. And I'll have to wait around until I have "the talk." It really doesn't inspire me to get my work done.

The saying still stands true: If you go on vacation when you work in construction, you won't have a job when you get back.

Regardless, it's an answer to a prayer.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Let's reroll.

I'm honestly worried that ignorant people will remember to vote this year.

Go go popularity contests and biased media. Perhaps idiocracy isn't as far off as it seemed...

If I had never heard of a walrus before but saw one, I am pretty sure I'd freak out.

Let's hear it for the Wiiiiii

So we rented Raymonds Rambid Rabbits 2.. or something like that... and it is way better than the first one. You can be the Rabbids (rabbits) in this one and unlock all sorts of awesome clothes for them. The games are way better too. Who would have thought that a sequel would be better than the first!

We started our small group tonight (church stuff). The people seem great although they are all older. They all have four and five year olds. But I think it will be good for us to be with more experienced married people. Although it would have been nice to have at least one couple being our age.

Life is kinda weird right now. I think it's because I have no direction or something. I just seem to be in a housewife daze of cleaning, cooking, shopping, working. Also it feels like people are pressuring us into having babies. Because what I need is another person to take care of ha.

And I need to start watching what I eat better. Well, actually, I am watching. I just need to make better, more rational choices. For instance today, I had three handfuls of chocolate chips, a cupcake with frosting, half a pan of rice crispies that we made, cheese crisp with steak on it, pomegranate juice, a salad drenched with dressing, a bowl of fruit, and pasta with garlic bread. Yeah. Pretty bad right? I also don't know if I am supposed to be eating 1250 calories or 1880 calories. It is a big difference. I think I just need to go to a gym and find out from one of their people.

Anyway, I am looking forward to October and the chance to wear warmer clothes. Oh and pumpkin carving.

YUM

I went on a fortune cookie binge. And this is what all my fortunes were!

Past experience: He who never makes mistakes never did anything that's worthy.

An unexpected event will bring you riches

Try to channel excess energies into rejuvenation

You'll never know what you can do when you try.

You are talented in many ways.


....yeah I know I ate a lot of cookies... BUT THEY WERE SOOO GOOD. <3cky

when sleep comes

I keep having anxiety dreams involving my ex-boyfriend John. Last night's version was that I found myself calling him, him answering, and me not having anything to say or wanting to say anything. In fact I couldn't remember why I called him and feeling completely horrified. There was so much hate and resentment in his voice. I woke up thinking it had actually happened.

Ryan thinks I should get rid of everything that reminds me of him. I agree, but I can't bring myself to erase two years of my life. It just seems wrong. I think I just need to deal with it and forgive him. Or something. Just the thought of him makes my chest tighten. We did not leave off on good terms.